my body.......... My heart...

Female anatomy There are five organs necessary for human survival: the brain, heart, kidneys, liver, and lungs. While there are many other important organs, losing the complete function of any of these five will result in death without immediate medical intervention. Similarly, there are five vital virtues for the soul's survival: Connection, Purpose, Wonder, Love, and Hope. Unlike the body, though, there isn't a clear-cut definition of what the soul needs. For example, in Christianity, nourishment for the soul comes from drawing closer to God—or, in a more secular view, by cultivating deep relationships and acts of kindness. My point is, you are alive. But what makes you alive inside? Why are you still here reading this? For me, my connection with people keeps me alive. My purpose to create keeps me alive. My wonder of the world and curiosity to experience new things. My love for art, music, and myself. My hope that my life will improve. I feel as though my body and soul's nourishment is equally important—what good is a healthy body without a healthy soul to enjoy it?

This page includes a few things that make me feel alive inside. I've included some of my favorite music live performances, and my favorite art and such. This page is text heavy, so sorry for that. I have lots to say. Thank you!

music in my brain!!!

2012 million dollar man

here is a showcase of my favoirte lana del rey performances. first, lana's million dollar man performance in 2012 at Eurockéennes. this one is a classic lol, if you are into lana in the slighest i feel like you've seen this one. really the only preformance that tops this one's infamy is her snl show lol. anyways, i feel like this concert really showcases sterotypical lana del rey fashion. Her hair, her clothing, and her voice are peak 2012 lana. She no longer sings like this, after the controversy of her snl show. I really enjoy this style, though, i wish she still experimented like this.

2014 gods and monsters

this one is her 2014 gods and monsters performance at barcelona. its definetly less well known. I looove this show though. her outfit is beautiful and this is my favorite hair for lana. Tbh, her classic super tall hair isn't my favorite, i feel like the way she looks in this video is stunning. Also, i looovee her dress in this and the way she moves with it while singing. God, and her vocals in this is beautiful!! and her cigarette and the way she emphasizes certain lyrics. The lights and smoke are amazing too, it just\ makes an amazing viewing and listenign experience.

2012 national anthem

Finally, this is my last one to show you. Obviously there are soo many more live performances i could show you. If you want to learn more about my music tastes, go to my music page. This one, her 2012 national anthem performance at portugal, i love her voice and how youthful it sounds in this one. I also love the guy behind her singing, i feel like it makes lana's voice sound even more feminine. only thing i dont enjoy about this one is how she sounds kind of rushed, like shes rushing to get to the chorus, i feel like the instrumental is quicker than usual.

art in my heart!!!

Crucifix — Giotto

I'm a big fan of rhis kind of christian art, idk what it's called lo. But where all the faces looks smooth and they all have the same knowing eyes and 3/4 profile. i saw this one in person at the lourve, and it is huge! i mean, not the biggest painting at the lourve at all lol, but it's large. It's covered in gold leaf, and i love how unique the shape is, and the 3d details. Like, the rocks at jesus' feet are 3d, and the entire piece is it's own frame. this is probably my favorite crucifix piece of all time, and that's saying a lot since there are soo many lmfao.

Venus and the Three Graces Presenting Gifts to a Young Woman - Sandro Botticelli

I also saw this one in person at the lourve, and i bought a poster of it there too, it hangs behind me as i type this. I love how light and airy fresco paintings look, and i feel like this really encapsulates that feeling. the three women are in motion, and even the cracks add a bit of beauty to it. Really, my favorite thing about this piece is the colors, it just feels like a very girly and beautiful piece. It feels happy.

The Kiss — Gustav Klimt

I loooove the kiss, and its been one of my favorites for a long time. I was introduced to klimt when i first watched elfen lied lol, i really love the intro to that anime. The unique sillouhette of the people is so simple, but the gold leaf and intricate patterns on everything else compliment it. i want to see this painting in person one day, its one of my goals. That, and i want to see the classic aphrodite painting in florence, i was rushed in florence and never got to see it! Anyways, this is the painting that comes to my mind when i think about my favorite painting, its just such a classic!

...Alive Inside...